BETTER

Lately I've been thinking I really want to become a much better person. I think motherhood has done it to me. When Micah and I were first married I felt this way, but not to the same degree. It has increased by a thousand percent or more! Anyway, it's a strong desire I've had for a while. I feel like I need to be doing so much more with my life. I mean, it's GREAT to teach and I really do feel like and know that I make a difference in the lives of my students and help them to build confidence, but in the end I get paid to do that. I want to have goals and do things to make me better. I read the blogs of my friends and I think that they are just such great people who I truly admire. I want to be that way. I want to be a good person. I know that I don't necessarily do really bad things, but I don't like when I judge others or even when I have road rage. I have serious guilt about those things afterward. I don't like that I don't do as much service as I would like. It's not like I can't find opportunities to do service, I just don't necessarily seek them out. I wish that I was developing my whole self more often. I want to be one of those people that others want to be around, who makes them feel happy, who builds up their confidence, like so many of my friends. I don't want this to sound like such a downer post, because it's not meant to be one. I really am not depressed or think I'm a horrible person :), I just know that people can always be better than they are and I hope to actually progress. Changes can be made though, and they will be... that is the point of this post. The Church is such a great help to me by reminding me that I am a child of God, but I can always do better. I know that I can look toward the Savior for an example and that is where my changes will start.

Life is GREAT!!

Life is a little stressful right now as I am getting ready to head back to work full time. I've already had a bunch of meetings this summer to prepare, but the reality is setting in... summer is coming to an end. Although I really would rather stay at home with my amazing family, I am at least happy and feel so blessed that I get to come home to my incredible husband and perfect baby. I love Micah and our little bean so much. They are seriously my whole world. Who wouldn't love to come home to these two?





I'm so grateful that I get to spend eternity with them! :)

P.S. Lila's innie used to be an outie. Haha... I love her.

My baby is growing!

Since Friday Lila has had a lot going on. On Friday she turned 2 months old. I can't believe it! On Sunday she was blessed. Today she had a doctor's appointment where she got shots. :(

There's not much to report about Friday other than it's crazy how time flies. She's only two months old but I feel like I'm beginning to understand all those other parents who said that they grow up really fast.

Sunday was a beautiful day and she was an absolute angel at church. Usually I have to leave right after the sacrament is passed to go and feed her, but she lasted all of sacrament. Part of that is probably because we had a bottle of breastmilk ready for her, but she didn't eat that much and she was still really good. I have to admit though that it was really nice to sit through all of sacrament with Micah so I think I'm going to continue taking a bottle to church seeing as she'll be having bottles a lot once I go back to work. I miss being at church and being able to focus on the lessons taught. Anyway, it was really nice being with all of my family and I was grateful for their support.




Today was where the big stuff happened. I was really excited to see how Lila has grown and was hoping I'd get a better report than I did at her two weeks. Turns out she is growing beautifully! The nurse and doctor couldn't stop commenting on how cute our precious girl is... and I'd have to say that I absolutely agree. They said that she was a genuinely cute baby, not just cute because she is a baby. :) Here is her report for 2 months: Weight- 11.44 oz. 64th percentile, Length- 22 in. 32nd percentile. This is around where I expected her to be if she was growing her average 1 oz. a day. I'm so excited that she is doing so well! So it was a great report, but then the sad part came... the shots! :( It was so sad to hear her cry out like that and it was the saddest cry I've ever heard from her. She's doing pretty well now, but every once in a while she cries out a little like she can still feel what happened. I HATE hearing her cry! It seriously makes my heart break! I'm glad it's over and that Micah will be taking her to all of her other shot appointments. ;)



Since so much has happened I thought I would tell you a little about Lila:
~She loves to smile, but I haven't caught one on camera yet... darn
~She hates lying down because she wants to see what's going on around her.
~She loves to be outside and go on walks with me every evening.
~She loves to sit on her daddy's lap and just smile at him... she smiles way more for him than me.
~She loves to cuddle.
~She has the biggest smile on her face right now as I am typing this. :)
~She is the best thing that has ever happened to us and we are truly blessed to have her.



We love you little Lila!

Food Storage

"Food storage to this generation will be as important as boarding the ark was in Noah's." ~Ezra Taft Benson

I've always felt really strongly about being prepared for tougher times just as the Church has encouraged us to, but Micah and I have seriously been talking about it and decided to get a start. We already had 72 hour kits which are great, and I've picked up some Jello, Pasta, cereal, and canned some fruit, but we needed to get further. Macey's is currently having it's case lot sale and so we decided to take advantage and add a little to our storage. Now we're still poor and don't have much room so we don't have a ton, but it was a great beginning. We got 24 cans of corn, 24 cans of green beans, 48 cans of tuna, 24 lbs. of brown sugar, 25 lbs. of sugar, 50 lbs. of flour, and some apple juice. The sugar and flour are especially great since I LOVE to bake and cook (after all the baking season is coming up!) and know we will go through it and we were able to save some money and have it in our storage for now.

We're excited about this beginning and are grateful to my mum for other canned goods. As we organize our area under the stairs and find more room we're going to be picking up rice, rolled oats, beans, fruit, and other things. We hope to build up our storage a little every month. I encourage all of you to get started on yours! I know there isn't always a lot of room or money, but just start with little things.