9 months up, 12 months down

This morning I weighed in at my pre-pregnancy weight! Yay! It took me a little longer than most to get rid of the 35lbs., but I'm just glad I did it at all. :) Now on to my final goal weight...

Hatfield and McCoy

Micah and I just finished watching the mini-series on these two families and it has really made me think about things. First, I cannot believe the hatred that you would have to have to not only allow, but to encourage a situation like that to happen.

As I've gotten older I have really become uncomfortable with confrontation, fighting, arguing, debating, etc. to the point where I would rather just step away from a situation and let things go rather than continue on. I'm grateful that Micah, in many ways, is the same. Some people may see that as giving up or taking the easy way out, but I just see it as not being worth the negative feelings. The Hatfields and McCoys make me really sad. I can't help but feel sorry for them. I can't imagine the kind of hate that you would have to feel to get to that point. I've never had a situation close enough to me that could possibly create that feeling, but I also just don't think it's really in me. I hope that I am never faced with a situation that could even begin to start feelings like that.

It was a really sad show and to know that absolutely nothing came from the fight makes it that much sadder. The whole time I was watching it, I was wondering if they ever thought about what their lives would've been like had the feud never started. I'm sure they did. I hope I never allow something like that to happen to me. I'm sure I'll never hate another family and get to the point of killing, but even having hard feelings in my heart could be a small scale version of what happened to them. It's a great lesson to remember that things just need to be let go. It's just not worth it.

Just 1 more

I have 1 pound to go before I've lost all of my pregnancy weight. Can I do it by Tuesday? Let's hope! :)

Help

For the past month and a half I have been stuck with the last 4 pounds from pregnancy. After I wrote that motivation post 6 more pounds just seemed to come off with minimal effort. Since then, I feel like I've put forth some actual, good effort (really I have :)) and the scale has been stuck. Any suggestions? I'm really not freaking out but I would like to just have this weight gone. Thanks in advance for the ideas!

Mother's Day

I know that the day is almost over and that it may seem pointless to be writing this post now, but I've thought about it all day and I figure better late than never.

Things are a little crazy around our place right now, but as much as I wish I knew what is next or what is going to happen, every time I look or think about Lila my heart fills with joy. She brings me peace that I could never have imagined before. I'm so grateful for that little girl and I know that she means more to me than I might ever be to her. I can't believe that I was blessed to be her mother and I'm so thankful that my Father in Heaven sent her to me. Sometimes it's a scary thought, but I'm excited for the journey. As a little gift to me she took 9 steps in a row and is really starting to show interest in walking. (She hadn't done much since her few steps at 10 months.) When she falls she doesn't go immediately to crawling, but instead gets back up and takes more steps. I'm so proud of her. Anytime now... I think!

I've only been a mother for 11 short months, but I can honestly say that each and every day I gain a huge appreciation and new respect for my own wonderful mother. I can't believe the sacrifices that she made and continues to make, and I understand that I don't even know the half of it. She's been an amazing friend, teacher, confidant, cheerleader, disciplinarian, coach, and guide.

So with that, I want you to know, Mum, that I love you and want to thank you for your strength and love. I hope you had a wonderful Mother's Day!